Sunday night Tommy promised me that NO ONE would take

Away the joy of me telling people myself that I'm pregnant,

And then last night he told me that his mom was going around

Telling everyone at her mom's funeral (and I haven't met any of these

People yet) that I'm pregnant.  When Tommy told me I got really

Upset and I told him, and all he did was defend his mom, which

Made me cry more.  He said "She was only doing it because she's

Happy for us, and her mom just died and telling people was the only

Thing keeping her from being depressed."

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad she's happy for us, BUT IT'S NOT

HER PLACE TO TELL PEOPLE MY BUSINESS!!!!!!!

Especially something like this.  Tommy promised me no one

Would tell anyone except me.  And then he let her tell every one.

If I have things my way this will be our only child, and now

The joy I would have in telling people myself is gone thanks

To him and his mom.  Now when I meet these people they're

Going to say "So Tommy got you pregnant?"  And that's not

What I want.  I wanted me to say "Tommy and I are going to

Be parents" and then see the look on their face,

And I can't have that now.  And I'm so sad.

He took me to the mall and bought me a couple of things,

Then since my period was nine days late he bought a pregnancy

Test with two in it.....I took both, one when I got home,

And one when I woke up this morning,

And I'm pregnant....So Tommy's not going back to Texas.

He got him last night,

And he's coming to pick me up in a little bit.

I'm so excited!!!!!!!!  I can't wait to see him!

I think this is the third week that Tommy's been gone.

He moved because of a job.  I miss him so much.

He should be back some time after this weekend.

I really can't wait....I just want to feel his arms around me.

He calls me every night though...We usually don't talk very much though,

Even though we stay on the phone for hours.

It's almost as if we don't have anything in common, but we do.

I can't wait for him to come back though.

I've been sick all week, so hopefully I'll be better soon.

Sorry I haven't been on in a looooong time.

I was working on a musical.....Anyways, I'm back now.

The show ended Sunday, and I remembered to get on.

There's not much else to say other than I cut my hair recently,

I have bangs now (and I done it myself),

And my birthday is WEDNESDAY!!!!

I'm excited....Tommy's taking me out for dinner.