WARNING: this topic may get pointed and/or may hit spots that you don't want it to. I warned you, so you can't say im a bad person...

okay, I wanna know how a child can feel anything towards a person they don't know. I mean, not just any person, like a father. Okay, my situation is that I have a step-father. He's okay, I absolutly hate him, but he makes my mom appy, so I live. Anyway, I never knew my father. He left when I was a baby. This never gave me any greif. Like, when kids used to ask me about my father, I would be like, "Dunno Him." and they would apologize as if thay had done something absolutly horrible. And their are some children who actually wanna know these people. If they left when you were a kid for another woman or for no apparent reason, then their obviously not worth all the fuss. I wanna know how these children, whom don't even know these people, can say things like, "I really miss him." or "How could he do that!" I just dont get it. I understand questions like, "I wonder who he is and what he's like and what he's doing with his life right now" but all that sentimental crap like, " I never had a father!!" *this is said with great emotions* i judt don't git. I know children with perfectly fine lives who have a loving mother and step-dad and they run around acting like, "I never had a dad, theirfore I was abused" and it makes me want to go and slap them in the face and say, "Neither did I, but im not crying! Now go and play with your dolls!!" god. Well...recently, my real dad has been e-mailing my mom, asking about me. So she replys. And suddenly, he wants my e-mail. So I give him the one I never use. And my mom comes to me and she says, "Well, how do you FEEL about this?" and im dumbfounded. I said, "How do I FEEL about what??" "You know sweety, your father e-mailing you" she says. All the while im thinking, " Would it be okay to tell her the truth and say I don't care what he does, or will she be upset about that?? Should I give a ****?? Should I actually think about it and even consider replying?? or should I just treat him like one of those people who you add cause they asked you to and then they never talk to you?? I call them trophy friends... Can I get away with using him as a Trophy Friend?? I swear im not giving this mofo my phone number. "   Yes, Im such a horrible person, I actually thought about all of that. Those were, actually, my exact thoughts at the moment. I ended up telling her I didn't care, and was a little shocked. But in the end she just said, " okay, dont set up any secret meetings with him" Which made me think..." Boy, meeting up with him might be a litle awkward. Not to mention I would treat as I do a complete stranger, whith my polite face and all. If he tried to hug me...lets hope he wouldn't. It would be awkward to kick him in his balls in public..." and yes, I would kick him in his balls in puplic if he ever tried to hug me. I don't even let step-dad do that. It's just odd. And, i also think if I kicked him in his balls in public...i might laugh. See, I know alot of people are gonna say im heartless, but I really wanna know, Is not caring about wheather or not your dad even cares about your existance that horrible?? Should I really care?? Should it bother me that I dont?? Plz, give me your true opinion, I promise that whatever it is, I wont git mad at you, since I did bring up the subject myself. oh, and thanks for reading this far.I know it was alot.

Slow Dance


This is a poem
written by a teenager with cancer.



She wants to see how many
people get her poem.



It is quite the poem. Please p**** it on.























This
poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a
New York
Hospital .



It was sent
by

a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement
AFTER THE POEM.




SLOW DANCE



Have you ever
watched kids



On a merry-go-round?



Or listened to
the rain



Slapping on the ground?



Ever followed a
butterfly's erratic flight?



Or gazed at the sun into the fading
night?



You better slow down.



Don't dance so
fast.



Time is short.



The music won't
last.



Do you run through each day



On the
fly?


When you ask How are you?



Do you hear the
reply?



When the day is done



Do you lie in your
bed


With the next hundred chores



Running through
your head?



You'd better slow down



Don't dance so
fast.



Time is short.



The music won't
last.



Ever told your child,



We'll do it
tomorrow?



And in your haste,



Not see
his

sorrow?



Ever lost touch,



Let a good
friendship die



Cause you never had time



To call
and say,'Hi'



You'd better slow down.



Don't dance
so fast.



Time is short.



The music won't
last.



When you run so fast to get somewhere



You
miss half the fun of getting there.



When you worry and hurry
through your day,



It is like an unopened
gift....



Thrown away.



Life is not a
race.

Do take it slower



Hear the
music



Before the song is over.



------------
--------






Dear All: PLEASE p**** this mail on to everyone you know -
even to those you don't know! It is the request of a special girl who will soon
leave this world due to cancer.



This young girl has 6 months left
to live, and as her dying wish, she wanted to send a letter telling everyone to
live their life to the fullest, since she never will.



She'll
never make it to prom, graduate from high school, or get married and have a
family of her own.



By you sending this to as many people as
possible, you can give her and her family a little hope, because with every name
that this is sent to, The American Cancer Society will donate 3 cents per name
to her treatment and recovery plan. One guy sent this to 500 people! So I know
that we can at least send it to 5 or 6. It's
not even your money, just
your time!



PLEASE P**** ON AS A LAST REQUEST.



Dr.
Dennis Shields, Professor
Department of Developmental and Molecular Biology
1300 Morris Park Avenue
Bronx , New York
10461

I think thats how you say it... not sure. This is only for anime fans k? if you don't like anime, then DO NOT go any further. :3 Arigato. If you draw anime, then Plz add me and send me some of ur work :3 arigato~ desuyo. and, for all anime lovers, go down to my best friends section on my site and add Cutie, i dunno when she'll feature her work, but she draws anime 2, so hurry hurry hurry :3 (AND THIS MEANS YOU!) X3

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