hey i love yo pic and i waz wondering if u wanna chat

thanx! *blushes* awww. XXXXDDDD. you widened my smile X infinity!

i love you too. im glad that i have the ability to brighten your day and put a smile on your face. i love seeing you smile. dont let anyone bring you down cuz you got someone right here who loves you truly and deeply. i love you so much, girlie. weve been thru too much together to not be best friends. and we made it thru the drama and the storms and came out with a friendship as priceless as rare diamonds. i dont know what i would do without my princess leah. i love you. beyond the level of human comprehension, more than anyone will understand. <3



with love and sincere priceless friendship,

your nay nay <3

ya i know. i swear i think they knew i wasnt being a good girl. they knew, i know they did. they had to have known. ok...jade got a blue ipod, which i asked for. cheyenne and jamie both got the digital camera i had asked for. i asked for victoria's secret love spell lotion and perfume and they didnt even buy me that. even amber got whats she wanted---she got a frigging DS for goodness sake's!!!! maybe i dont deserve to get a digital camera or ipod-ill admit to that, but perfume and lotion? i mean, come on!!! its like they want me to smell like a frigging donkey! dammmmn! and btw, i did make that blog post; ya like it? i made it cuz i had a lot on my mind. and these are the most reoccuring questions that often pop into my head. im extremely depressed and i absolutely hate myself so i always choose the dark side and answer my retarted depression questions the dark-side way rather than being positive and answering them the positive way as i did the second time. theres two sides to everyone. and many people(depressed or not) will eventually ask themselves these questions at one point. what matters is how you choose to answer to yourself. these questions are way more complex than they appear and have many different answers, depending on the person asking/answering them. whether we admit it or not, we would all rather choose the dark-sided answers to the questions, cuz, if you look closely, the dark-sided answers are way shorter than the positive answers. it took me forever to notice that. the solution is simple: we all choose to take the easier path cuz it takes more thought to answer these questions the positive way. thats just how weve grown. and if you answer the questions darkly for a long period of time, you become trapped and its extremely hard to get out. i try to stay positive myself, but sadly, i dont think ill ever get out of this trap ive caught myself in. im optimistic on the outside,but the inside of me is still trapped and its gonna be that way for a very long time, if not forever. im a corrupted soul and its all cuz of how i chose to answer the 5 questions. dont let the simplicity deceive you...when youre asking yourself these questions, answer them the positive way...youll thank your non-corrupted self for it every time you breathe non-polluted air. this is a promise from experience. take the time to think. your very sane existence depends on it. i love you, princess leah. make good choices, for your castle and its people depend on it...im being as forreal as i can be. <3