I'm looking, searching

for that special one.

The one thats going

to be there.

The one thats going

to love me.

The one thats going

to tell me the world's not

going to fall on me today. 

I need him more than he understands.

I'm a darkness needing light,

he is my light.

If only he knew,

if only i could find him.

Where is he?

The one i've fallen so deeply

in love with.

Where is my light?

I miss him.

This darkness around me

is not me, i want my light.

If only he were here.

My heart aches in sadness,

i'm so alone.

I can't find him, where is he?

Where is my love, my light,

the one i've been searching for?

I need him by my side,

I love him. 

gosh so i went to the doctor wednesday about my m.r.i. results about my wrist(this is the second time) they told me i had kein-box disease, people its nothing that serious if your wondern, but anyways they said had to get a cast so yea. its a pretty light blue and luckily ive keep people from signing so far so its still pretty lol.

So yea... my birthday was tuesday and i turned 14, big whoo not really, it was a pretty sucky day. i havent really been on much lately and im sry for that. anyhow i guess i ttly  <3 ya

I miss you.

I miss your sweetness.

I miss your love.

I miss everything

you said to me.

Why did you leave?

Why did you

stop talking to me?

I told you i love you,

I still do.

Do you still love me?

Do you still want to talk to me?

I can't bear the thought

of never talking to you again.

I cry at the thought.

I want to be yours again.

Don't leave me alone.

I was once alone,

I was in the dark,

then you saved me.

Don't let the dark come back.

Your my light,

so please shine.

I love you.

I miss you so much.

I need to hear from you,

please.

Can't you hear me

when i say,

I Love You and

Miss You.

When I think of you

I smile.

When I think of you

I cry of happiness.

When I think of you

my heart beats

a million miles an hour.

When I think of you

I think of no other.

I want nothing 

more than to be with you.

To see your smiling face.

I want you to

hold me, and never

let go.

I want to always be loved

by you.

You make me happy,

you make me whole.

I love you so much, though

you don't even know.

I can't see you , but

i still love you.

Please don't forget me.